Every Little Tots

That feeling is here again

2012-02-07T19:08:00.001+08:00

I should be feeling happy because I have just tendered!! Should I?

I intend to rest for a while but I became very Emo all of a sudden after "throwing". I think I felt guilty to my male boss since he is the one who brought me in. Am I normal? And also my last day is just before IT Show, I felt bad because I will cause others to do my work.

Hiaz ya! BOTHER! I think I'm too kind hearted. Forget it and be nasty for all I care. I hope I can.

The feeling I mentioned is DOWN. After placing the letter in my boss desk n walk out of the office, I listened to sentimental song, probably it's the reason why I'm feeling this way?

$10 Million Toto!

2012-02-04T00:55:00.002+08:00

Sounds like a big wave of people will flock to buy including me. Got influenced by a vendor, while meeting ending soon, he said he wants to go buy Toto and I say "Why not?" and I bought tons since I don't buy any single 4D nor toto for whole of last yr. I probably only buy once or twice every year. I dont even remember when I lsat bought.

Anyway, Im not one of the winners for this $10M Pie :(

Bought as much as $40 of Quickpick, $3 set of system 7 and some other 4D, not cheap you know (at least for me). I seriously think this type of gambling is very addictive. Once you start buying, you may be addicated to continue buying and buying..... BAD.... I hope Im not cos I thought of buying next week already which I never had such "feel" before. i just want to feel the feeling of "I strike 4D or Toto!" Not because Im greedy for the money but of cos who will reject money? :P

LET ME WIN ONCE CAN???

Simply Fascinated!

2012-02-02T20:03:00.011+08:00

I don't know why but I just felt so fascinated by the sky one fine day, took some shots and I keep looking back. It just captured me, I seriously don't know why. I think this is unusual but I don't think anybody will notice this except me. And I tell myself I need to load this up, I need to tell someone about it but I don't want to share on facebook. :P

It may look like the usual sky to you but it look different and sort of scary and unbelievable to me when I look up the sky that day....

It's a Challenge!

2012-01-26T00:21:00.007+08:00

This is the second night Im staying up to surf net. What is the content? It is all about reading up the P1 registration process and the thread of different primary schools Im interested in for enrolling Nicholas. We are near non of the good boys' school, mixed school is ok thou, however, it is a real headache to find a school that I think is suitable for him and Im satisfied with - to be exact.

1) Rosyth Primary - as much as I wanted him to be in, I will not opt for this school. I guess the odds are way too much so rather don't waste energy and time.

2) Xin Min and Hougang - Both looks like they are equally popular... hmmm.. I choose Xin Min since it is <1km from my house, higher chance BUT the balloting history are scary, even for <1km. Unless I do PV which Im quite reluctant.

3) Holy Innocent and Maha Bodi - Will choose either one to be first choice and get into their Phase 2B as much as possible, if failed to get in to Phase 2B, can only say bye bye. Both are SAP school.

4) Montford - if all else fails, this will be the last attempt which looks the safest. If this is my first choice, there will be no sweat. But as a kiasu parent, there is no gain if there is no fight! Sometimes, it's about peer pressure. You want to say my boy is in a SAP school call XYZ rather than a neighbourhood school which people give you the blank "what school is this, never heard before" look.

You see, actually my main concern is very contradicting. On one hand I would like Nic to get into a reputable school, on the other hand, reputable school naturally is more stressful and Im worried he may have to struggle.

Real Headache..... what should be the priority - distance, standard, ego of the parents, nic's ability, nic's character or stress free registration?

Vomit Blood

2012-01-18T22:18:00.001+08:00

People always say "vomit blood" to describe how frustrated they are feeling until they can vomit blood. Singlish probably but we all knows what it means.

If you imagine yourself really vomiting blood, this is no joke and it's serious matter. I didn't literally vomit blood today but I spit out BLOOD from my throat! *Alarm*

It was scary to see blood coming out from any part o your body other than the monthly "woman's aunty visit". Serious! I hate nose bleeding but it comes to me every now and then, probably once or twice every yr or 2 yrs.

To me, I think it's frequent enough. Sometimes little sometimes a lot where I have to lie down on bed. But when I do so, the blood will flow back and I can feel the iron taste and I will naturally go spit it out like phlegm.

So here, it feels like spitting out a pool of blood!! Scary!! I hope I'm ok thou. Bless me and Goodnight!! Zzzzzz....

Nobody can help u except yourself

2012-01-16T17:08:00.001+08:00

I think this is very true. One type of illness is definitely nobody in the world can help you except yourself. That is - depression.

Not sure if I have but my friends says I do. Because I'm getting quiet and I'm serious in the things I talked, not like before where I like to make jokes. I really don't know. Don't worry as even of so, mine is the mild stage cos I dun wish to die yet! Haha :P

Highlight of CNY!

2012-01-16T11:06:00.001+08:00

I have been eating this for CNY since many years ago. As long as that Aunty continues to make, I will continue to support.

It's not too sweet or dry, just nice kinda feeling even if you pop one whole piece in. Hmmm... Waiting for my throat to clear first, now a bit sore.

Jan 2012

2012-01-16T10:58:00.001+08:00

It has been a super slack month for me. No mood for everything - seriously anything! I just want to sit at a corner and play my phone, dream away, state blankly, shop alone etc. I sounded like a hermit crab don't you think so?

Want to hide or run away from everything and hide in a comfortable corner. What has got into me?! I've become so much like a loner, getting too much already actually.

Hope this CNY will be a good one. Having said all these I still managed to get prepared for CNY. Hehe! I've got new clothes, Nic got new clothes, even my maid but I forgot about Daddy.

Well, he has bonus he can shop to his hearts content while me... Savings is dropping each day with my massive spending recently. And I have decided to quit by Feb somemore.. What a plan!

Welcome 2012!

2012-01-01T00:13:00.001+08:00

I can hear the fireworks from my room windows. I can imagine how happening it is out there for people who went for countdown parties and clubbing. I have long forgotten the feeling of such moments because recent years I have been sitting or lying on bed listening to these sounds alone with Nic sleeping beside me. Anyway, it's just a matter of getting used to. What's the use of a husband don't ask me this question.

看开，想开, 自然开心. At least you won't be too unhappy. Sometimes to feel numb may be a good thing. Good night everyone, embrace 2012! :)

Last and final post for 2011!

2011-12-31T23:56:00.001+08:00

I ended 2011 with a slash from Nicholas. I was holding a cane pointing at him asking him to go for shower but he pulled the cane instead. The cane then made a deep slash to my 2nd and 3rd finger. Damn..

Nic was so afraid when he saw blood gushing out from my fingers. At least this makes him listen to us for a moment cos he knows he has hurt me and is starting to feel guilty.

Round 2 then begins, adult mahjong time, this time with my in laws. I won $28! Well, that is it. Goodbye 2011!!

Last Day of Yr 2011!

2011-12-31T15:31:00.001+08:00

Today is the last day of year 2011! No point making resolution because I never get to fulfill them, not even 1. Puzzled why I don't have a proper goal in life. Im a Zombie.....

What did I achieved and what do I want to achieved next year? No idea. Not to be dampened by my negative thoughts even on this last day of 2011.

Here's wishing all a very Happy New Year! :))

Any takers?

2011-12-30T15:30:00.008+08:00

Im trying to sell away my pre-loved wallets and handbag. Used to be my beloved but when new ones comes in.... tsk tsk... greedy humans then 喜新厌旧. But Singaporeans are getting richer, dont think anyone will be interested in 2nd hand items....

One Gucci bag

One Prada Wallet

One LV Wallet

Our Activities in Penang

2011-12-28T18:09:00.011+08:00

Other than eating and swimming for the kids, we adults PLAY MAHJONG. From a mahjong family, mahjong is definitely one of our activity in Penang. However, im not playing this time.

The kids do nothing there but swim and watch TV. Other than that, they also had a colouring contest as I have brought along some McQueen pictures and crayons for them to colour if they are bored. And also the highlight of all, they get to play Glowstick when we are BBQing.

Other activities out of the house - We hop by a stall for a coconut refreshment. It was hot in Penang!

We went to Batu Feringi, I think this is the name for it, it is along a beach, we went further up to the Butterfly Park. I tell you, this butterfly park's butterfly flies around and land on this. I cannot take it cos im afraid of flying insects! *goose pimples standing up*

One landed on my brother's leg

While this landed on my mum's shouder

And this on my dad's chest. Eee.. luckily not on me! My fanning works! :P

And what will the ladies be doing?? Shopping! We took some time off to Gurney Plaza and shop to our hearts content while the kids swim, bathe and watch TV for the last night. Nice... :)

Nothing much but relaxing and nice... with family. Company is the most important, the place is secondary. Counting down to Year 2012.

Nic is going to K1!

2011-12-28T17:41:00.009+08:00

Nic looks bigger in size for a K1 student. He can pass off as a P1 student. Anyway, he has just completed his Nursery class, going to K1 next year. Getting serious now as I have to look out for a suitable primary school for him in no time.

I nearly broke out in cold sweat during his performance day, Im afraid he will not perform and cry on stage. Being a boy, tallest in his class and biggest in terms of age (he is born in Jan), the least thing I would like to see is he cry and look for daddy mommy if you know what I mean.

Luckily, he is fine, although he is not the main lead in the performance, he did a pretty good job with his shy character, i dont ask for much. Im glad and the "stone" in my heart bugging me finally vanished.

Nic and his so called Best Friend. One born in Jan, one is Dec.

K1 means more homework and blood vomitting! Hope year 2012 will be a fruitful year to myself whether it means my career, Nic's academic growth or wealth growth. Cheers!

Don't bother me!

2011-12-28T11:33:00.002+08:00

Luckily I'm on leave today. In a super super no mood to work state. Very serious type because I can't even be bothered to pick up calls from important Cust. Pls stop calling me!!

I'm on leave and just dont feel like working you know. Sigh... Frankly, the real reason is not about being on leave. It is because 70% of my heart has left this company. What can a 30% effort from an employee do? They struggle till they used up the last straw.

For me, probably it's after CNY. Felt so good that none of my colleagues knew of my blog and I can write whatever I want!!

Penang Trip - Food!

2011-12-27T23:14:00.017+08:00

It's all about food!

First time ever we had dinner together out of Singapore as a whole family!! Nice Korean food which cost us RM $700! Expensive? We are too satisfied with the food and all - worth it! We even had Soju... shiok!

This is dinner for the 2nd night which is X'Mas Eve - Nonya Food, RM$250. Super worth it! Nice ambience and authetic nonya cuisine which my mum cannot stop praising.

3rd night is our own BBQ dinner. My mum had 2 sons and a son-in-law, BBQ is easy job! Ta da! What is so difficult to cook, eat and talk, drink and cook eat talk drink? hehe :P we had great fun chatting and eating. BBQ preparation ~RM$300

We had good food every day. This is our Day 4 dinner. The duck is their speciality, we had a whole duck, half chicken, tofu, vege, many more and deserts! Yummy. RM$400 plus

On top of the dinner, we also our lunch but usually very simple. Like Tim Sum, the famous red hat woman char kuey teow, some hawker centre snd Canto1 at Queensbay near the airport when we are heading back.

The overall eating experience is pretty good except that it is rather expensive considering it is Malaysia, the standard of living has definitely increase if you ask me.

Day 4 Night - Last Night

2011-12-27T00:52:00.002+08:00

Finally we came to Day 4 of our trip. Going back to Spore tomorrow. Overall it was a good trip. We get to relax, swim, talk and eat and shop and watch many VCDs, BBQ, eat, talk watch TV again. ;)

I have clean forgotten about work and Singapore. It's a strange feeling because this time round it feels like my home is in Penang probably because my own family members are all here. Well, if u know what I mean.

See u back in Spore and I will share more photos. Cheers! Happy boxing day and happy New Year! Let's prepare to welcome year 2012!!

Pics are coming.. later

2011-12-25T00:51:00.002+08:00

Penang Trip

2011-12-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

Not sure if my recent blogs pictures appeared "bloated"? Used a new application to write my blog on the go, have not seen it on a computer yet.

Anyway, just to carry on. Was on a Penang trip with my whole family to my brother's condo. He has stationed there for work purposes, we just bunk in for a simple Christmas gathering from the busy Singapore. It was situated at Gurney Drive, near to Gurney Plaza and the sea. Like East Coast condominium facing the beach. However, the one here is not a beach.

Food here is Expensive!! Shopping too!! A plate of char kwey teow is ringgit $7! Well I think it's expensive. Having said that, we enjoyed the company, food and festive mood here. Still worth it ;)

Ready to go!

2011-12-25T00:28:00.002+08:00

Yeah! I bought a nice little Lady Bird luggage bag for Nic. He was delighted and I always wanted to let him have his own luggage bag, I think it's cute!

We are on our way to Penang, in fact, we are already here! It's 25 mins past Christmas. Usual years I spent it with Nic alone as daddy is always out with his friends. This is the first time perhaps that we are together with my family.

It is a cosy feeling and very comfortable too, loneliness is not with me this year. It should be one of the merriest Christmas for me for a long time. By the way, Penang is quite a happening place, cool!

My Fated X'Mas Gift!

2011-12-17T14:22:00.002+08:00

Me and my few girl friends have been exchanging gifts for the past many years. It is fun but too bad all of us have very different taste in terms of fashion and value. Best of all we are of different body shapes, height and sizes so we cannot buy clothes for each other.

Anyway, it's a draw lot game. I never had luck for 4D, Toto or lucky draw therefore I dun have high hopes and moreover I still feel my gift is the best! Haha! Well, It's just the fun and getting into the Xmas mood so I don't mind getting the same brand of perfume for 2 years! :) luckily it's different frangrance.

Shoes gave way - Again!

2011-12-17T09:56:00.001+08:00

This probably the 3rd pair of goes that gave way while I'm outside working and working around. Why! I probably should consider the higher end brands of shoes to wear which I'm already am. It has to be it, it's well worth it. 3 times is enough.

Good morning!

2011-12-14T08:06:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 650am today for no reason and it so happen to be my OFF day! Normal working days I cannot get up so early, when I'm OFF then the biological clock works - of all days.

Had a good morning with Nic, he woke up at 7.30am. We played around, talking nonsense and tossing around in bed. He is like my little lover. :-)

Over time

2011-12-13T19:53:00.001+08:00

Things changes as time past. It's inevitable but being humans we tend to think about "last time this last time that". I think it's human. We cannot stop comparing becos this is what we do best.

Compare with the good, u feel either demoralize or motivated, yes it's that extreme. Compare with the bad you may feel proud or over contented that you may forget about the grounds.

Things changed, environment changed, climate change. But humans always resist to change. Why?

December is my favourite month

2011-12-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

I guess December is a lot of people's favourite month. Its the festive season where everybody receives presents, give presents, organise parties, clear leave and go for holiday etc. But probably most important of all, many of us receives our bonuses. Not for me thou as my company pay out bonus before CNY, not in Dec and we dont have AWS!!

This December I have many program line up. Meeting ex-colleagues for gathering, exchanging gifts with my bunch of girlfriends, company X'Mas party and short trip to Penang with my family. Time passes real fast. I know I mentioned this countless times but this is how I feel everyday.

As I was looking at the Lunar Eclipse just now, I cannot help but felt the fact of the earth is actually moving every single moment amazing. I mean the earth is moving and we cannot even feel it. When earth moves, the seconds of the clock ticks away. And tonight it even moves between the sun and the moon!

There are so many things in life that I do not know about or rather know about it but never thought about it for a moment.

Lunar eclipse

2011-12-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm standing at my room window watching Lunar Eclipse. It's rather interesting if you know why this will happen. Check out the websites. :)

Little to go before the moon is totally coverd by the earth that comes between the sun and the moon. Cool!

More photos to share

2011-11-28T00:55:00.012+08:00

When I have more photos to share means Im finally using a decent laptop, not my iphone nor my netbook. Im missing the romantic country and its weather. You can see couples kissing in public but its so tender and passionate. I felt romantic seeing them kiss but I imagine in Singapore if I see a couple kissing, I will puke. I think its the people and culture and weather perhaps? *shrugs*

On the boat to Venice... here I come...The gondola experience is wonderful because I never thought that I would visit Venice some day. It's just a simple boat ride if you see it but so unforgettably romantic and real.
The San Siro Stadium for Inter-Milan and AC Milan
The famous church in Italy just outside the shopping area. In fact, I don't remember any of the names.... and I've been there twice. *shake head*This is the stretch of branded shopping area. LV, Prada, Gucci is there! Shopping starts!
This is the famous oldest cafe in Italy if I didn't remember wrongly. Musicians are there to play classical music for you for a nice cuppa coffee... The waiter who serves you is the cashier. You pay to him instead of a cashier, he whips out cash from his pocket. Just like our kopithiam kopi aunty and uncle? :P
Look at what is in the tray. One cup of Cuppuchino, one glass of Latte and a Tiramisu Cake. Guess how much it cost us for sitting a 20 mins and having these? 45 Euros. But worth it :)

Our view while enjoying our tasty treats with the background romantic setttings of music, the cold weather and the fact that we are in Venice! Luxury of a lifetime :)
I really love to travel. I hate myself for being short, if not, I would have become an air stewardess! The world is so big, when will I ever go to the places I love to before life is too short for me? I always wonder.

Seriously worn out

2011-11-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

I can't take roadshows anymore. 4 times a year is too much, not even once a year perhaps. Too physically challenged, guess I'm too old for all these.

Legs aching, mind blank, moody n constantly thirsty and not forgetting yawning. It's almost 10pm but I'm still not home yet on a Sun night - seventh day of working.

Imagine I got to work another 5 days! That is 12 days of non stop working! Let's put a stop to this soon?? Money and well being, which is more important?

Answer = contradiction. No money, cannot spend = no well being. Have money, no personal time, stress, tired but can afford to spend still = no well being because energy is drained, no mood and health to spend happily!

All about bags!

2011-11-25T13:24:00.001+08:00

Talking about bags. Although I came back from Milan but I still bought a Charles & Keith bag when I was shopping at the new Changi Point Mall shopping centre.

I brought this bag to office one day and my colleague asked "how come never see u buy this bag in Milan"? I look at her and say "No brand one la, from Charles & Keith". She give me a blank look. I also don't know what to react.

I think probably because the ladies in my whole company are using branded. Anyway they said my bag is nice but they have no more courage to carry no brand bag anymore. That's why u can't have too much of a good thing, u will be 走火入魔.

Chanel Bag!

2011-11-16T08:45:00.001+08:00

Do you go crazy over a Chanel bag? Well I guess most if the ladies do! However I'm not one of them. Reason is simple - I take the MRT. You know how much can one Chanel bag cost? Up to S$7000!

Unless I have a car, if not, in my own opinion, taking mrt with a $7K bag is totally out of place! Furthermore, this bag dun look casual at all, the design is so classy which I hope ladies out there taking mrt don't ruin it's value.

LV is already ruin. Young ladies going to school or aunties going market uses this bag! Well I guess singaporeans are getting richer too. I was at a Zara boutique one time and seriously left right centre all around me, people are carrying LV bag!!

$7K for a bag is a No No for me at this moment, probably 3- 5 years later? 

11.11.11

2011-11-11T21:39:00.001+08:00

Almost forgot. Today is a perfect day - supposedly but I have to spend it at KK Hospital with Nic.

Anyway, I just want to mention my friend's daughter is born today. How lucky to be born on this date!

Hope it's a lucky and good day for everyone but too bad not for me as Nic is sick and worse of all he miss his full-dress rehearsal today! Really sweating now that's why now hoping he will perform well on 3rd Dec - his graduation day performance.

加油 My Boy!!

Let's pose!

2011-11-11T21:33:00.001+08:00

This is my favorite picture taken in Milan.

It was actually a very brief trip but best experience is at Venice, factory outlet and their coffee!

Oh my god.. Nic's fart is here again. I wonder is his fart contagious. *sigh*

一波未平一波又起

2011-11-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

It's as if is like the time of the year to get sick. I just recovered from dengue and now Nic is infected with Stomach Flu. Woke up at 3am yesterday to take care of him, I think I should get some sleep now.

Weather is hot need air-con but problem is Nic had a bad stomach, he let out damn SMELLY farts. Aiyo... Looks like I will have a rough night. Now I'm afraid I will kana his virus becos I forgetfully share a spoonful of porridge with him. *crossing my fingers*

2 weeks!

2011-11-09T09:06:00.001+08:00

2 weeks of no makeup, no high heels, no squeezy MRT ride is perfect but today I'm going back to reality - work! In fact is to go back face SHIT. Dun ever expect 2 weeks of my disappearance things will still move on. It PILES on instead! Arrghh

Hate to face such reality to be honest. It probably shows that I hate to work or Im starting to hate my job already? It's time?! 很烦啊!

Isn't it gross?

2011-11-08T17:57:00.002+08:00

I personally find this egg yolk extremely disgusting. You know, actually a normal hard boiled egg yolk shouldn't look so disgusting. It should be smooth and not with so many err how should I describe the 一粒一粒的东西.

You know why? Because it's used to rub over my fever body. By using a handkerchief wrapped over the hard boiled egg, use it to roll all over your body concentrating on your head.

This is the result. Dun believe - try it. Chinese believe this will take away the "heat" that is the fever in your body. Well, I did feel slightly better but also probably is I just took paracetamol too.

Sentimental song works

2011-11-08T11:20:00.001+08:00

I'm an emotional person and sentimental songs always works for me. Meaning whenever I'm listening to it, anywhere anytime, I will feel extremely affected. Don't know why.

I'm at CDC waiting for my blood test results and of cos while waiting, songs are my best friend. Watch drama until a bit bored, listening to songs makes me feel better now.

Really don't understand why I always have a discontented feeling. Don't know what I want but feel like giving up. Am I in depression again?? Aarrgghh....

Are u interested?

2011-11-07T22:06:00.001+08:00

I am really wondering. Are there people out there who knows me as a person thinks that my life is great and wants to be me? I think it will be a joke if there is.

I don't know but of all things I complain, nothing leaves how boring or how pathetic my life is, therefore I'm sure anybody who knows me will ever feel "hey you've got a great life, I would like to be you!" If there is, it will be an unbelievable truth.

Having said that, my life isn't that bad but it wasn't fantastic either. So I guess it means BORING which I agree no more. Nicholas is my life my everything, my out of work time is spent with him 100%. It is amazing how this little rascal makes my life different. Be a parent and u will know.

Pls back off!!

2011-11-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

Ades mosquito caught me!

2011-11-06T22:12:00.001+08:00

I didn't even thought of this before - down with dengue. It was a horrible feeling. My earlier post already mentioned the fever came with shivers, eye pain and severe headache.

It was not a usual cold flu cough kinda fever. It makes u "cannot recognize your home" (in hokkien) kinda feeling. I gave up on all calls no matter how important the call may be just because I felt terrible! It just makes u wanna give up on everything, puts u down and makes u depress.

After a battle of 1 week, finally the dengue shown itself up with the rashes, aching legs, sore and bright red palms and SEVERE tireness and lerthagic. I'm not kidding, anyway your platelets are also low and you will be feeling anemic too. From the day u start to have fever, u need at least 2 weeks of rest from then, just like chicken pox.

Finally it's over now and I'm trying to recover from all the negative feelings as well as physical stamina. Bad episode for me.

Bizarre things happening!

2011-11-01T16:18:00.001+08:00

All of a sudden I'm caught up with high fever of more than 39 degree C for at least 2 days, starting on a Wed. Then follow on with fever till Sun which I visited the Changi Hospital A&E on Sat.

Finally! I thought but it is not the end of my sufferings yet. I bleed and resting for another 3 days, rashes surfaced. And now I'm back to A&E. Now waiting for result, may be dengue.

Sometimes things just happen. If it were to happen, it will. 是福不是祸，是祸挡不过。something like that.

The Gondola man

2011-10-20T19:41:00.003+08:00

Yeah Baby!

2011-10-20T09:37:00.003+08:00

The Gondola man is so cute! He sings, jokes, tell us what he likes to do in his free time in a romantic place like Venice - sex! We had great fun on board. Ladies out there, it is ok to dream that one day your prince charming bring you there for just a KISS...

Although it's such a romantic place but I cannot help but feel Korean may be a better place to fall in love just because I'm listening to a nice Korean love song while typing all these. *someone wake me up pls*

Milano here I come again!

2011-10-20T09:25:00.003+08:00

It was a different experience altogether this time round traveling with colleagues to Milan. A place I've been before 5 years ago. It is colder than before and I'm angry with myself for thinking it's not cold!

I brought a miserable trench coat there thinking it's enough. *what am I thinking*. I left all my nice winter jackets at home. Bad move. Anyway, it's just 3 nights and most important of all, it's the experience that counts.

Venice is a wonderful place. So glad there is this trip as I duno when I will ever visit this place. As what is seen in poster and pictures of Venice, it is very predictable. However, this is for real and the Gondola experience is also.... Hmm.. How should i describe - Magical?

Shop shop shop shop is all we do. 买东西吃东西, 买东西吃东西. Too bad I dun have an unlimited budget, if not it will be a PERFECT shopping spree - in Europe.

Trying to face back to reality again. Get back to work and 忍忍忍. On my way to work now.. MRT is not so pack at this time. *Dreaming*

Yet another retro night!

2011-10-12T23:17:00.002+08:00

My current company event is retro theme this year. So similar and I stupidly wear the same dress n hairstyle as i did few years ago. Regretted it cos I think it's boring!

Thinking back, my boss commented I look good. But in this company, it's hard to stand out. There are 80% younger, fashionable and wilder ladies in this company. I just stood aside will do, I dun mind actually.

I'm going to Milan tomorrow, wish me health and fun and remind me to spend less. 

Who is your saviour?

2011-10-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

Everybody is paying tribute to Steve Jobs. No doubt he is a great man with great invention, creativity and power. Well, im using iPhone 4 now . Yes, kudos to him. Now I'm wondering - who is the inventor for instant noodles?

LOL. I know I sound silly but although instant noodles are not a healthy treat but it served the purpose PERFECTLY! When I'm hungry in the middle of the night, I will have cravings for a packet of Maggie Mee.

"Maggie Mee" is just like "Pampers", I mean in fact they are just the brand name but people call them such to represent the original. I think it's superb.

Coming back to my point, I always felt so satisfied after a hot bowl of "Maggie Mee". Of cos it's not necessary be "Maggie" brand but it still serve the purpose leaving me happy and smiling after finishing the last drop of the soup. 

Maggie Mee is my saviour. I just had a packet last night but hungry again now.. But no way 2 days in a row for supper. 忍 

Last day of the month

2011-09-30T09:04:00.001+08:00

Yeah! It's the end of quarter 3 now. One more quarter to go before the year ends. If you are talking about age, I shouldn't be so happy but I'm actually talking about my job!

I'm giving myself 4 more months as I'm quite pissed off with my job already. With a lousy direct boss who only knows how to bullshit to get thru her way, I'm hitting the roof just by hearing her voice.

I wonder why some big bosses likes to listen to bullshit. Can't they differentiate right from wrong or have at least some gut feel on what is happening, who is working who is not?

I guess I am wasting my time just by thinking about such things be because if bosses knows exactly who is working who is not, the only knows how to talk and carry favor ppl out there will not be the favored staff.

I think I will never find a true boss who appreciates you for what you have done and realize your potential and pushes you to achieve your goals. I'm gald I've been with a boss like that before.

Adele - Set Fire to the Rain Lyrics

2011-09-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

Updates from the boring blogger

2011-09-26T23:43:00.003+08:00

I looked back all my post and realise that I have run of things or rather engery to blog. Used to be little bit creative and hardworking in terms of loading up of photos but have turned to how I am today. Lazy and lag. Who to blame except for myself?

Luckily Im not too lazy in dolling up myself, I think for the benefit of my own self esteem, I am still keeping up. Hmm.. how shall I put it? At least I am not lagging behind in terms of dressing and figure which I hope I will continue to keep up. It's no joke to be like a real AUNTIE. I dont want that at all even thou one cannot fight age.

Using my netbook now so I have no pictures but Im going to upload my current favourite song from Adele.

Coffee works

2011-09-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

Probably its the coffee that makes me feel so awake, if not I am already sleeping like a log now. Or perhaps its the short discussion with my boss today that leaves me feeling EMO? Or rather its the effect of both.

In any case, im wide awakw now and feeling yes - EMO! Many factors including the recent news from Wan Bao again about the young mother who drowned with her 3 yr old son. Maybe Im a mother myself that is why I felt so pitiful for both of them and it makes me wonder how badly hurt can someone be to do that. Seeing news of people jumping down seeking death and all makes me wonder - is life really so diffcult?

Personally, life is a chore, its not easy to deal with but it is not too difficult either. You can choose to enjoy life or choose to live it bitterly. Easier said than done of cos, if not I will not be feeling EMO now..... :-(

Boss say I have been blacklisted as "Taking time off to take care of kids". Meaning Im not working, I always leave early to go home! I wanted to be angry but felt pointless to be angry over such irresponsible comments. Some people or rather bosses just cannot see the potential of their employees and only listens to one side of the story. I always put myself in their shoes, if I were them I will do this... and I will do that... blah blah. Well, you can say Ive never been a boss so I may not know how a boss should feel. I bet to differ that as Ive worked with a reliable boss and the feeling is CONFIDENCE.

In what sense? Confident because I know boss will know what Im doing and appreciates me and scolds me to correct my mistakes and pressures me to push me to maximize my full potential. If a boss didnt manages to do that, does that mean they are not good bosses? Or does that mean the empoyee is not up to the standard? I duno how to put it but I know exactly how it feels to be with a great boss! It is a one in a million chance to work for a truely good boss who knows how to appreciate you.

Exercise routine

2011-09-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

Im convinced that I am serious about Yoga. I am interested to attend every Sun for the past month. I find that it has less stress than the normal aerobics class. Not sure why the aerobic class people are very stuck up, they know all the steps and wear fanciful gym wear. Not like in a Yoga class, everybody dress relax and barefooted and friendly and seemed harmless.

Im still tempted to buy a pair of nice trainers but is holding back because my original trainers is not spoil yet. I thought after a good 5 years it will naturally reach its peak and everything will fall apart after I wear it again but it didnt - surprisingly. Hmmm. should I or should I not?

Im hungry now... goging to look for food. Sayonara.

Bird Park during my Birthday!

2011-09-18T13:09:00.003+08:00

Nic and me at the Singapore Bird Park duirng my Birthday in Apr this year. After using iPhone, I have less pictures to load because I have no idea how to transfer from iPhone to computer.

In the first place, synchronisation is already a problem to me, it is so different from my previous experience of Windows Mobile phone - ages ago.

Anyway, finally got it up and I will load more pictures when I have time. Now Im busy with irritating reports and reports. Work is getting harder to do nowadays.

Every week Im only hoping weekend will come faster so that I can watch some drama and relax with my darling boy. Life is such now....

Dun be mistaken, my birthday is not in Sep, it's actually in Apr, imagine I took so long to load the photos. Oct will be a busy month for me as there is comapny D&D and also company Incentive Trip to Milan is there is no changes.

My parents' 5 grandchildren

2011-09-04T19:52:00.001+08:00

Is 5 grandchildren enough? Or is 3 kids more than enf? My parents have like what other singaporeans have at their generation - an average of 3 kids per household.

During their generation, some families have up to 7-9 kids which life is still normal, doesn't mean more kids = need more money. Well that is what I felt about our older generation. They use what they have. Poor have poor way of raising their kids.

Unlike our generation, we think far ahead. We feel more kids = more money needed. More money needed = more stress = less time = suffer = cannot give our best might as well dun give birth.

The education is already a headache and with the raising number of KIASU parent, u cannot get on with ur life without hearing ur cousin, ur fren, ur fren's fren child at age of 2 Already know this la that la... It's so stressful.

Old notebook

2011-08-27T12:43:00.003+08:00

Was using the big old notebook that is probably 3 yrs old. The design was big and bulky as expected and the palm rest is HOT, however, the best part of this notebook is its keyboard. The typing feeling is very smooth and comfortable. Nice. Nobody would buy a second hand notebook right since the market is already selling a brand new notebook at $499? You bet! Check it out this coming Comex Show at Suntec and you will know.

It's also because Im using this notebook that I found all these cute photos of Nic... aww.. how sweet he is when he was just a little boy.. :)

Talking about notebook, Im going to buy a new Sony laptop! It's pink in colour that makes my heart melt as its my favourite colour. hehe... :)

You know the answer

2011-08-27T10:39:00.002+08:00

This is indeed an exciting year for Singaporeans. We get to vote 2 times in a year. One for General Election, one for the Presidency Election. Luckily it's a drizzling Saturday, it is cooling to go for the vote, I remember the GE voting day was a very sunny and humid day.

Being in a local stingy company, we are not offered an Off-in-liew for this day. What a waste. Anyway, I have check it out with some friends on their opinion of who is their 心慕中的人选。 Im surprise that a lot of them, wanted to vote that "Tan"! However, most of them also mentioned whichever "Tan" you vote, that "Tan" will win.

Well, the vote count makes a difference even though you think that particular "Tan" will win. Cast your vote wisely yet again and enjoy your off-in-liew!

Me and my Nic only

2011-08-24T22:24:00.003+08:00

I felt like a single mother at times but staying at my in-law house. One thing Im proud of myself is that I have never once quarrelled with anybody in the house except my husband. Every time hear from friends or examples of friend's friends etc, sure fight with this, argue on that, snap at who, quarrel with who etc. But I never once did that. Well, I flared by at times and I will say something bad but most of the times nobody heard me or everybody pretended not to hear.

Anyway, I dont care cos most of the times, Im oblivious to the people around me at home on what they think, do and say. Im never interested in their conversations even though I know I can commend a lot on that topic if it was from a friend. Im sick and now numb to staying with in-laws, I know I can never have freedom. There are more to come since Nis is growing up and with his cheeky and playful character and lazy attitude, my in-laws are complaining WE throw Nic in school and dun care abt his school work as he cannot recognise ABCs yet.

They should mind their own business and just raise their Ace kid who knows everything even thou she is one year younger than Nic. If they want to be nice, pls go ahead to teach him instead becos what can a single mother do after a day of hard work. Sometimes Im too tired to teach and first of all, I got no patience! Teaching will NEVER be my cup of tea, that is my character. I hate it when they come and grumble about Nic's academy is bad!

What is the daddy doing in the first place? Do I know him anymore? Work and kopi and now golf and beer. When are we ever in the picture? I give up, my world is only Nic and me. Counting my straws left.... Nothing happened doesnt mean nothing will happen.

Style is Important!

2011-08-24T21:59:00.001+08:00

I'm trying to lead a better and healthier life now. I want to look good, feel good and enjoy my everyday life with my little cheeky boy.

I signed up a package with Amore fitness recently and I'm enjoying the exercise and is getting serious about it. I realize people who is willing to folk out that much of money to sign such package to go for exercise means serious business.

Why am I saying this? Becos I attended an aerobic class that is full of aunties to begin with BUT they are the stylo auntie gang. Speak English, not fat nor flabby and most important of all, dress up appropriately for an aerobics class.

I felt so out of place with my unattractive Tshirt and baggy 3/4 pants. I have not bought a nice set of gym wear cos I have not got the time to shop. It was a disgrace but I tot exercise only what but hey there, u need the style in order to look good while u are stretching and grooving around out there!

My priority shopping list now is a set of nice gym wear and sports shoe!

Good or Bad

2011-08-16T08:04:00.001+08:00

I feel I have a weak body so I have started a supplements program for myself. Not sure if it's becos of this that Im more energized in the morning. Meaning the moment I open my eyes in the morning I dun feel the weariness anymore, I can straight away get up from the bed without touching thru my way with my eyes almost fully shut.

However, I have weird dreams at night which I will remember when I first woke up which after I'm prepared by the next 40mins to move out of my house, I forgot almost all of the contents of my dreams. Dun feel secure of all things. Bad.

Singplay at Terminal 3

2011-08-13T15:01:00.001+08:00

Now I know why Nic dun wan to play whenever we pass by. No one to play with him, that's why there seems to be not much point to be in there.

Finally he is happy and willing to play- that is when he has friends. Can see he enjoyed himself very much.

My fren keep telling me his son very poor thing she MUST by hook or by crook give birth to another child to accompany his boy, well it took her 7 yrs and by the time her bb gal was born, the siblings are 8 yrs of age gap apart. Does that make sense at all?

The Istana

2011-08-08T21:14:00.001+08:00

The Istana

2011-08-08T21:12:00.001+08:00

Have you ever wish to be the president? Well... Like what I see from the Korean dramas of the rich rich prince in shining armor staying in a superb big house, The Istana is just as BIG.

Imagine it is in the heart of the town, and you have to get around in buggy. Of cos, there is a golf course inside which I just got to know when I visited yesterday. Saw the president too. Presidential Election is coming soon thou, another talk of the town is happening already.

In a circle

2011-08-08T21:01:00.001+08:00

Things keep turning in circles. I felt sad, depress then ok, happy, satisfied then lonely, lost and irritated again. Goes round and round.

Not only does this goes round and round, ur karma goes round and round too. A fortune teller once told me that I do not have much 人缘. I'm sad to know that becos this means I dun have much friends and I'm not popular to people around me.

Is this destined or it can be created? I argued but he reminded me that it can be created but it does not naturally comes by. Alrighty I know I'm not and will never be a popular figure but I think I'm not a bad person to be with.

I have ever been boycotted before when I'm in my early working days. It was pathetic to know that people just dun want you to be around but things got better when I went to a new company. Ironically, me and my khakis boycott another colleague!

Guess what - I felt I'm being boycott again now... I can sit around my desk during lunch time and everybody can be preparing to go for lunch but none is willing to ask me along.... You see.. What goes around comes around.... Hard truth 

Determinination

2011-08-06T14:16:00.001+08:00

What makes a person go all the way to achieve something? I guess there are at least 2 things that people find it hard to reach the finishing line. That is to quit smoking and to go on diet.

I'm not a smoker but have become a social smoker, I smoke on and off when I have the mood or during the 4 trade shows when in always very pissed off.

Trying hard to slim down now but I dun see much effect yet. Sometimes I felt yeah I've slimmed down a bit but sometimes I felt I'm still so fat! Arrggghhh!!! It's hard to resist food u know.. Especially when life is already so bored. Food gives me "energy" in another form.

Too fat to be true!

2011-07-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

Never felt so fat before in my entire life. Even fatter when I have just given birth. OMG, I could just die like that.... Im usually hearing people complaining to me how fat they are and how they tried to slim down blah blah blah.. Life's such, keep bouncing things either back to you or to others. Therefore, there is no absolute "NO", "Never" in this world.

But seriously I have never look down on fat people just felt they are quite pathetic sometimes. But why me.... seriously Im not OBESE but with my height and weight, I think Im on my way to being overweight in terms of my BMI. Sad Case.

Anyway, I guess I just have to watch my diet and exercise regularly. Diet and exercise is an important factor, it is a curse for you if you neglect them! I hope I will continue my jogging and Yoga class this week... which arrr.. jogging a bit difficult cos really SHAG even for a mere 15 mins run! But Im proud of myself for starting it at all! *Clap Clap Clap* for myself.... :P

Last but not least... WISH ME LUCK! I will post again when I've slimmed down 5KG!!!

Something very wrong

2011-07-23T09:04:00.002+08:00

I hated the fact that I cannot drink! Have been trying the longest time since I graduated from Poly perhaps? When I was studying in Australia, I tried drinking something light, beer etc but what I get is ending up in the toilet either shitting or vomitting.

Not joking! Hated such feeling.... the most I can bear for a half an hour and after that I need to vomit or I will "see stars". Of cos, that is after an excedded amount of alcohol content in my body and I can only tell you that is only half a glass of beer for example. Aarrgghhhhhh!

Im picking up the bad habits in this company im working now, smoking and drinking. Wanted to be out of my life doing something which I seldom do cos a lot of times I felt so sick of my life. In real life, things are stagnant and work life seems stagnent too and felt that strangly only my ex company gives me a sense of belonging. In this company, I felt myself isolated from my colleagues even thou it may seem we enjoyed ourselves together. I really have no 人缘. Or Im too sensitive? I hope so.

Be amazed!

2011-07-14T19:04:00.001+08:00

There are alot of things u will find it amazing if u care to observe everyday of ur life. Take today as example, Nic showed me the way home!

I took an unusual road home today and I casually ask Nic to show me the way saying I'm lost I don't know which way to go home.

He pointed all the correct way either luckily or he really knows the way which may be a possibility since he is very observant. Aww..I felt so attached to him now.. 

Nic knows how to Plank!

2011-07-10T13:12:00.003+08:00

It's funny cos Nic just naturally likes to plank. No joke, cos he always do it on the edge of our bed frame!

We change our bed position few weeks back and now the bed frame doesn't lean against the wall. Instead, it has a gap from the wall and since then he has been "planking".

Of cos he didn't have a clue what the hell is planking but he just climb up the frame and position his body very straight and purposely place both his hands by the side of his body for a while and next he will fall onto the bed. He find it so fun as he repeated it again n again until we threaten to beat him with a belt.

ClubMed Bintan!

2011-07-04T08:56:00.002+08:00

I had indeed a nice experience at ClubMed Bintan. The Service is good, the ambience is joyous with strangers greeting you at every corner of the resort. You will feel so at home.

Many families spent their holidays there, mostly are "Ang Moh". We are the only big group there from Singapore I guess. Everyone had a fun time although the whole of first day we need to be in the conference room. Such Kick-off meeting cum retreat indeed brings each of us closer.

My legs are aching from the dancing. Been so many years since I let my hair down and dance!! I'm surprise myself! It turned out to be good workout, I sweat! :D

More Photos

2011-06-28T00:00:00.004+08:00

Have so many photos to share but for my friends with my facebook account will probably see more photos than here

Know what is this? It's "Bing Nang". It's said to revitalise your energy once you ate it. Driver needs it.One shop full of this cute toy but dunno what is it called. We bought 2 back for Claire and Lucas.

Taipei 101. You can never guess what we bought there. Bossini clothes worth S$300 rather than the branded stuff. Weird? Haha!

My favourite hotel - with a private spring bath, so grand and cosy

Really like it there. Rest and relax for me.....

Didnt get to eat this, looks nice and chewy like my favourite bubble tea with pearl!

"Ping Tang Hu Lu"

The food in Taiwan looks superdelicious but actually the taste doesnt suit me. I find it a bit blend and dun taste fantastic. Somehow or rather not as what I've always seen on TV with the drooling effect when the food is served. I still prefer Korea with their Authentic Korean abalone porridge... *slurp slurp*. Miss it so much....

I just can't get enough

2011-06-27T23:19:00.011+08:00

Dont think I will ever get enough of holidays. Who likes to work anyway?! Back to reality, life's a reality. I have somemore pics to share from Taiwan.

This is one of the unique experience we had in Taiwan - the European wooden house stay. The room is filled with sandlewood smell and you feel like you are surrounded by forest. I don't dare to stay alone in this room, a bit scary in that sense. :P

Isn't it spacious?
Now we are really surrounded by forest - we are in a bamboo forest - 竹林

Hmmm.. What do you think?

This is one of the houses made by one of the Native tribe in the Aboriginal Cultural Village. I wonder what it will be like staying in such houses. The native people are indeed interesting.

The games there are cheap, we paid only about S$0.50 for a catch. In the end, we spent about S$8 or so to catch Spongebob and Patrick!! Worth it! Btw, I caught the spongebob! :)

My boy look so sweet.... yeah!

Has a fun time in Taiwan except the occasional rain that made my shoes all soaked. I threw away 2 pairs of shoes after I came back becos they are deformed... anyway, Im already thinking of my next destination... hiak hiak hiak. :P

Crab time!

2011-06-19T17:42:00.002+08:00

It's the first time I had CRAB dinner with my friends! But too bad the chili sauce is just not up to standard, and it's so expensive!

We still enjoyed it very much because of the company. We had tons of crap to talk about and 3-4 hrs will never be enf but we are already drained.

What can u expect from a bunch of "Aunties" who have to work and take care of our families at the same time. Body is not like before where we can sleep late and still feel energize. Those were the days. Now we are half dead after work.

How can u be happy if u have to work and toll... ESP for working mums... :( it's tiring and sick. Guess "Feng Shui" is not good for me this year, keep getting sick. Really sick of getting SICK!

They are thirsty

2011-06-16T17:42:00.005+08:00

Mummy: "What are u doing, Nic?"
Nic: "I'm giving my animals some water. They need to drink water because they are thirsty. Elephant drink with his truck!"
Mummy: " it's nice, mummy take picture, say cheese"

If u see what he is wearing, it is his set of favorite clothes. Everyday when he comes home from school, first thing he will say is "I want to change to my favorite clothes!" Its just a plain white colour singlet and a loose shorts. My darling boy loves to wear that everyday duno why.

And recently he can sing the "Party Rock Anthem" techno song. "Everyday I'm shuffling". Haha.. So cute..

Shallow me!

2011-06-14T08:57:00.001+08:00

Hmm... Interesting. My friend send me a message via What's App. Now, there are
more things that money can't buy. Never thought so much about it until i saw the message. Its true. And I may need to change my equation.

Money can't buy u health, time, a life, love and family. Example, u can buy a house but not a FAMILY. You can buy a clock but not TIME. You can pay for sex but not LOVE. You can pay for the blood transfusion but u cannot buy back a LIFE.

Guess i am a shallow person after all, should have thought of all these. It's rather sad. I mean for the things that money can't buy.

Hiaz... Another work day traveling by mrt to work... Zzzzz... Hate Tuesday! But the nonsense Me is back for more Nonsense and grumbles.... :P

Money cannot buy happiness?

2011-06-12T12:07:00.001+08:00

You think so?? Was listening to Jessie J's "Price Tag" song and there she goes singing "Money cannot buy happiness". And suddenly I thought about what money can do. It can definitely buy happiness - to a certain extent!!

Not 100% but at least 90%. Let's just say u have no money and u feel u are very happy but to me, u are only 60% happy. In your heart there must be many things u cannot get by the power of money and is dwelling hard on it. This takes away your 40% of happiness.

Of course, there are surely people out there who beg to differ. Indeed, there are things you cannot buy. To me, it's the 10% of happiness and trust perhaps; that money can't buy.

Taking mrt to work on a weekend and mind always wonders.... Hmmm.. Which do I belong to then? Well.. Is it important? Some may ask. Realistic and practical seems to have the same meaning in this case.

Public transport media

2011-06-10T10:25:00.001+08:00

Saw this poster of Simply Her magazine in the MRT and there is this article in there that says: "The unbearable sian-ness of being. Banish that void and take control of your life."

Mar issue 2011, hmmm.. wonder who has that cos I want to read! "The unbearable sian-ness of being" - couldn't suit me any better! Does many people feel this way? Can you banish that void and take control of your life easily?

Taiwan Trip!!

2011-06-04T10:16:00.014+08:00

I always long to go for holiday. Yeah - we finally set off for a 8 day tour to Taiwan with Chan Brothers. It was fun. Taiwan is a nice place. Would be good to go there again with my buddies to shop in near future!

Check this out - it's 臭豆腐!

Give a "Push Hard" stance and the boat of gold nougets will be yours! :)

This is taken at the Aboriginal Cultural Village. Interesting culture of the 10 tribes in Taiwan.

This is my favourite hotel room with Safari theme, isn't it lovely? Look at where Im standing! :)

This is what we should see out of our window if our room is facing this area but too bad it is not. Nevertheless, it is still a nice experience. eerr.. this area is smell thou :P

He is the "Mao Wang" as termed by the Tour Guide. How do we look?

We are actually crusing the "Sun Moon Lake"! 日月潭

This is the "Ye Liu" Stone Park. Feel like Im in Korean when Im there don't know why.

More photos coming up in another post... :)

Wan Bao is for aunties?!

2011-06-04T09:09:00.001+08:00

I read Wan Bao almost every day because my FIL never miss to buy a copy of it for the 365 days in a year.

Well, I've learnt to read Chinese thru this becos I nv touch Chinese newspaper but Wan Bao is different. The news are more human, I mean the reports are mostly about things that happened in Singapore or weird or strange things that happen around the world, not forgetting the tabloids!

On and off I will feel troubled by the news reported and I will read and follow thru. Recently I felt very sad for the Indonesia boy who fell into the drain and drowned. I think for a parent to accept this reason for their son's death is too much of a blow.

Probably I'm a mother myself, I see the boy's mother cried until she fainted, I really felt very affected. Life's really unpredictable. Even if u know it's 天意 but still it's hard to accept when it comes to ur own flesh and blood.

I like this slogan from M1. Life's short, Live it! I always live in a world of denial, dun bother to reflect and blame the world for it. Complains are useless but for ppl like me, I just need these to move on.... Complain means nothing more than complain itself.

Totally drained

2011-05-26T19:46:00.001+08:00

I want to change job - AGAIN!

This job is too demanding to my health. I got wear high heels and got to run about the whole of Singapore and I have so many roadshows to cover every weekend, tons of emails not cleared and to top it off - my commission is CAPPED!

Bloody hell.. I made so much effort for so much sales but my commission is capped, can u believe it?? Anyway, work is always so frustrating.

Maid is coming this Sat, hope there isn't much hiccups.... Tired x infinity... My flu and bad throat is still haunting me... My mucas is mixed with blood and green phlegm. What do u think? Either I'm emotionally depressed or I'm totally drained out...

My life span will be shorten by at least 10 yrs I guess... :(

Here I go again! Help!

2011-05-25T11:00:00.001+08:00

Once in a blue moon I will change, change for the better or worse I really don't know.

Sometimes I feel like moving out, sometimes I feel like playing many games in my iPhone, sometimes I just dun feel like working anymore, sometimes I feel like going out and have fun, sometimes I feel like giving up everything, sometimes I feel like starting my own business but no clue to how.

I'm a total freak who keeps thinking of unrealistic things... That explains why my palm is full of crisscross, people always say I am too troubled too many things to think about!

Lost touch...

2011-05-14T23:01:00.001+08:00

I have not been active posting my blog for the longest time. Lost touch since I have been so busy with my work and busy at home as my maid is still not here yet!

Another thing that have take taken a bit of my time nowadays is the GE2011. It's exciting and so different from 5 years ago. The Internet plays such a vital role in this case.

Well, like my last blog, I mentioned the Workers Party is vey strong, each member has their own charisma and leadership that people can feel it i guess. And my feeling is right - they won! Congrats!

Till now, I can't help but keep updating myself and reading about the politics updates from "the online citizen" in facebook. Well I'm surprise at myself cos politics never interest me until now. It's a whole new world to learn and judge.

At least recently I'm not so DOWN like I used to be....a piece of good news? Or still too early to tell. Goodnight!!

My new love!

2011-05-04T08:53:00.002+08:00

I bought myself a new watch! Not sure of this brand but I liked the design very much. A big analogue face with rose gold trimmings and Swaroski crystal! $250 for this watch consider a good buy? To me - it is! ;)

I actually like another design from Marc Jacob and was about to buy when I walked over to take a look at this brand that I decided to switch. Never regret! Loving it!

Complicated human mind

2011-05-02T07:44:00.001+08:00

It's actually a good month for Apr and May. A few long weekends to enjoy but I didn't make full use of the long weekends. Instead I woke up very early everyday - about 7 plus 8. During weekdays, I wish I can sleep longer BUT why is it when there is chance for me to do so, my body went against me!

Wanted to sleep longer and I keep telling myself "dont wake up so early", and it does the exact opposite. However, I consider myself an early sleeper. As long as I lie on bed close my eyes, I will fall asleep.... Zzzzzz.

What should I do now??

Cast your vote wisely!

2011-05-01T16:04:00.005+08:00

Well, it's getting pretty exciting over here. Im with the Aljunied GRC!

5 years ago, I didn't pay attention at all to any rally, speeches or what so ever regarding this voting. In fact, I cast my vote base on my 唱反吊 character. I prefer to do things that people dun normally like or dare to do.

It struck to me that, people from Aljunied GRC has given the WP a vote of 43.9%! I remember I was ironing my clothes that night when the results are out. To me, there must be some reason, since Im in this constituency, I need to know what is going on and not like 5 years ago where I cast based on gut feel. I want to know what is it all about - about worker's party and PAP.

I didn't attend the speeches at Serangoon stadium but watched youtube instead. I watched Low Thia Kiang, Sylvia Lim, Pitnam Singh, Png Eng Huat, Chen Shou Mou, Chiam See Tong, George Yeo and even Tin Pei Lin and Nicole Seah. The answer is obvious.

I teared when the frail Chiam See Tong says this : "I'm actually not a brave man but I love Singapore, I love Singaporean". I also like this from Nicole Seah: "Do you want a new coat of paint in your void deck or a representative to speak up for you in the Parliament!" There are many many quotes that I liked from the opposition party which I couldnt be quoting all, which I felt are all so true.

The WP presented sharp and witted speech against the PAP, while the PAP uses the soft approach to gain the hearts of the people. I mean, some Singaporeans will understand where they are coming from and most probably have found an answer. Suddenly I felt so proud to be a Singaporean once again! :)

Surprise cake!

2011-04-24T09:22:00.002+08:00

Actually I dun usually like such surprise birthday celebration becos believe it or not, Im not used to being in the limelight at all. I am a reserved folk who likes to lie low at a corner watching some other babe gets all the attention. Weird or strange to describe me but I am SHY- Yes... ;P

Luckily or unluckily even if I want to get the full attenton I wun get a chance because I always have many other colleagues whose birthday falls in the month of Apr. Which is good cos I dun have to be the only one standing in front of the cake when everybody is singing birthday song.

Long time never show case my boy...

2011-04-14T23:25:00.004+08:00

The usual Nic with his favourite toys.

Conversation List

2011-04-14T23:14:00.005+08:00

Have you been listening to the morning 91.3FM The married man radio? Im not a fan but have been listening to it when Im driving to work recently. I like this session especially - conversation list. It's quite interesting, you got to answer their question but there should not be any repeat answers, hesitation, hmm.. or uurrr... or yes or no or yup or what's another word for it they use, cant remember. For more than 30 secs without the mentioned, you are the winner!

Anyway, they will usually start by calling that person's name and ask is that his name, what is he doing, no need to go to work etc, all sorts of questions to make you confuse so as to make you hesitate or answer yes no hmm huh urr... arr... hahahah... i like that. Sometimes it's funny. And most of the time I will feel I can do better than them... just that I will not be calling to participate. Haha! ;P

开心鬼上身

2011-04-13T00:34:00.004+08:00

Just finished watching this movie. Imagine I took more than 4 times to finish up a 2 hr show. I watched it while I'm ironing my clothes, before I sleep so as to make me sleepy. The story line seems very predictable, little comical, so so but Im curious about the ending so i just continue to watch casually missing some parts here and there.

The next thing I know is - I cried very hard! Seriously, it didn't cross my mind that this is the story line probably becos I didn't pay full attention or thought much abt it. In fact, I'm thinking, how come I'm not crying yet cos most of the Korean movies made me cry! And here u go... My eyes are swollen now. ;P Actually this movie reminds me of one Hong Kong movie by Sammi Cheng - My left eye can see ghost. Similar plot that will mae you cry....

Powershot brew

2011-04-09T02:41:00.001+08:00

I'm addicted to COFFEE now! Actually my body kinda hate or reject caffeine. I will usually feel slight giddy or sudden stomach pulling (you know that means) once I drank it. But I dun feel it now!

And I love coffee!!!! I'm a fan now!!!!! Having said that, there is nothing to be proud of becos that is the reason why I'm still blogging here at this hour.... COS I can't sleep! :P

Btw, I have a husband = no husband becos he never one night stay at home. His priority in life is to go kopi with his friends at night and sleep so damn late and wake up so damn late especially on a weekend wasting away family time.

How sad can it be but is it for him, for me or for both of us? *shrugs*

Stressed out!

2011-04-07T19:01:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I feel I have the power to spend although not lavishly but at least comfortably. I came to realize that I am totally wrong. Reason is - I have to work to be able to enjoy that.

If one doesn't have to work but can afford to spend lavishly or comfortably, that would be so nice!! Unrealistic to think that I know but when the "suffocated" feeling sets in, this is what I will be dreaming about.

Been so tired recently. Alot of housework at home and a lot of fire fighting at work. I cannot take stress actually. I'm not as strong as I thought I am. I am tired.

Maybe age plays a part or my personal life perhaps? Being not happy usually at home, how can I be happy at work? Sleepy now.. Even when I'm standing in the mrt....

Excitement on the way!

2011-03-28T18:54:00.001+08:00

Been along long time since I've been on a trip. Not any roadtrip like KL, Bangkok or Genting. It's going to be a roadtrip in Aust! I wanted to go Perth so much! I miss that place.

Got to bring Nic along... Not that I'm reluctant but just worried that he may not cope well there. Weather, food, sleep, flight etc etc etc... Really really wonder why I have no Helpers!!!

Now pending whether to go Perth or Melbourne. I prefer Perth, love Perth, miss Perth. Busy month of Apr and May with new maid coming and I'm planning a week trip... Why does things that happen always dun happen at the right time?

It's meant to be or we created it? Mixed feelings....

Fish balls and Otah?

2011-03-25T08:53:00.001+08:00

Mood swing is a very scary thing. I can be damn down this day but OK the next.

Today's mood was quite good, feel like going out for a cuppa good coffee or tea with a close friend. But I realize I got not much friends or i shall say friends who is willing to meet me. Ask my husband out for dinner and he rejected me too!

Say he bought nice fishballs and otah need to finish it off tomorrow, therefore have to eat at home. I'm not a fan of fishballs anyway. I'm gng out alone if need be!

That's how I've turned out to be recently - loner and sadist and depresserean. I made up this word "depresserean. Yes I'm the "depresserean" and say hello to loner Viv....

Reason

2011-03-21T22:35:00.001+08:00

There is a reason for everything that happened. Yes I agree. The reason why I'm posting again is becos I dun wan to entertain Nicholas. This chap is my ＂开心果＂as well as my "扫性果".

The reason why I'm happy and angry everyday depends on him to a certain extend. Today he totally spoil my mood. But to be fair to him, it's not totally his fault.

I wonder why people like me likes to find fault whenever something happens. I admit I'm no angel, I do hv very bad traits which I despised myself at times. This is one of them. I like to believe the fault lies with everybody except myself.

I knew it but flashes of "if I have maid..." or "if my husband is around.. " or "if my in laws are helpful..", all these wouldn't happened. Well, bottom-line is "WHY GET MARRIED!!"

Recently when I heard people are planning to get married, I would give this comment: "年纪轻轻就这么看不开？" And laugh it off although I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

Response I got from them is "Is it? ok one la". Then Good luck folks! Having said that, I believe there are still happily married couples out there thou I'm not one of them.

Negative blog

2011-03-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

I should change my blog title from "Every Little Tots" to "Every Negative Tots". Every blog is about my negative feelings... I felt sorry for myself and my blog!! But I just cannot help it!

Goodnight World...

Happy 70th birthday to mum

2011-03-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

My mum just turn 70 yrs old this Mar. When parents aged, means we r aging too. I bought a bouquet of carnation flowers for her and a nice cake. Plus a nice Japanese lunch at Turf City.

Food is so so but everything turn out quite well. My parents have not really sat down in a Japanese restaurant to have a proper meal before. Slog all their life for their children hoping their children will take care of them when they aged is their goal in life I guess.

Never ever have this kind of thinking that your children will provide for you went aged cos u never know how ur child or children will turn out to be especially when they get married. And especially its son and he is hen-peck.

For me, i dun hope my other half is hen-peck. I only hope he can understand my position and think for me but there I guess there are only a FEW men in this world will ever think for their wife.

I envy my ex-colleague's wife. My ex colleague keep telling me that he is waiting to move out as they are waiting for their flat to be ready. I wonder - thought guys like to stay at their own house, their wife should follow suit?

But hey! He told me his wife dun like to stay at his house becos of the not so good relationship with his mum and he understands how she feels and wanted her to be happy and was all set to move out. I was like... "I wish I hv a husband like u!!"

And guess what. His wife has the same name as me but it's not me :(

I'm not stopping here. During her birthday, or any anniversary. He would buy present for her. Well, present is simple. But he walked a few shops just to select the best wrapper he feels match the present! I mean.. I've never seen such a thoughtful guy before!

Hiaz... That's why people always say: 同人不同命. So damn true....

If you want to know then accept it!

2011-03-14T21:12:00.003+08:00

Some things are better left unknown. Although you may know something inside your heart but if this is made known to you, you will feel like a thunderbolt has strike you.

Humans are always curious animals. Or I shall say woman. They want to know everything even thou they know inside their heart that they might not be able to take it. Well..... there you go.. and here it goes.... :_(

The answer is obvious. Wake up and be strong is the best encouragement I can think off for myself. Don't be too tied down by "Feelings" but be rational. It would help if I have good girlfriends but I realise down the years or probably its me that I am someone who has no 人缘. So I find that I have no friends whom I can really rely on and most of my friends are very distant from me. This is sad.

This is not helping!!

Needles again....

2011-03-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

Finally I went back to see my Acupuncturist.I like her becos she understands me becos she understands my body and she is not the commercial type of Sin Seh I knew.

Anyway, I visited her last week after a long year if I didn't remember wrongly. I needed a second opinion becos one of the Chinese sin seh I visited keep saying my liver is too "hot". 肝很热. And she keep giving me awful medicine to take which helped at first but subsequently didn't.

Well, Im not sure if the earlier medicine helped but I did feel much better after taking my Acupuncturist medicine and one round of acupuncture. She mentioned, with my health condition, I will easily feel frustrated and depressed. I was like - "Damn right". Maybe that explains why you see the many complains blog I posted more than any other. :P

You see, I was actually believing my health is the root cause but come to think about it again - NO NO.. my health is the after effect of what is happening to me. Meaning, my life is really.. hmm. not really pathetic but in a way - sad. That is why my health tunes to be that way. This is what I choose to believe at least. That's the -ve me.....

Will u smile if u r unhappy?

2011-03-02T13:28:00.002+08:00

Wonder why I'm always not happy. Wake up early in the morning, the only feeling I get is "Sian". Got to work, going to be late, many things to do. Got up and felt toilet is dirty, bed is messy, dirty clothes basket piling up, had hard time waking my husband up, shouting at each other early in the morning becos of my naughty boy n rushing of time.

Why can't I just feel "wow, it's a brand new day!" "I've got many things to look forward to!" "what should I dress?" or simply singing or humming songs... Dun think I ever felt happy - ever since when I really don't know.

Seems like loneliness and helplessness is my only companion.

Suddenly I wanted to go swimming so much but becos of some stupid reasons I cannot go into the condo pool near my house. Public pool is No No! Hate it!!! That kind of dampen mood sucks!!

If I wake up everyday feeling this way, I guess I will sink into depression sooner or later. Of cos, some of the days I feel absolutely nothing - no joy no nothing, just another day.

Arrgghh.. When will I see some light??

Acting on impulse!

2011-02-28T15:40:00.001+08:00

I'm going for a swim now!! I hope!!!

Let's see....

Beautiful sunset

2011-02-27T11:15:00.001+08:00

Captured this at one of the Changi Chalet held by my reseller. Nice scenary and kinda romantic if u were to sit by the seaside to watch this.

Quiet and peacefulness is what u should expect. By the way, I captured this using my iPhone 4. Not too bad isn't it? ;)

Happy Valentines day!

2011-02-14T17:15:00.002+08:00

I used to totally forget about Valentines day but I was reminded about it again today because I took the mrt and as usual, guys will walk around with a small bouquet of flowers.

Thinking back, Valentines day for me is fearing I would not receive anything - on my table (when I was schooling). It will be sad to receive nothing u noe, meaning u hv no admirers. Luckily, I'm always blessed with some good suitors. :)

Most often than not, I would receive some surprises during Valentines day. Like receiving gifts and love letters from someone that I didn't expect. Although mushy but I appreciate their frankness.

It's fun thinking of all these. I always think I'm a more than simple girl, normal looking with hmmm.. Not much of a figure.. Haha.. But well, looks like my suitors sure have a unique taste :P

Getting corny?? Haha.. I shall stop here then. Have a happy Valentines Day! ;)

Good start for you?

2011-02-14T08:49:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure how to explain my feel to the year of 2011. I seem to be lost totally in a world which I entirely don't recognize.

First of all, I don't feel any drive (I know this is bad). In fact, I felt so LAZY. Don't feel like working, don't feel like achieving anything, don't feel anything is Important at this point of time. Just don't want to do anything!!

Ohhh.. Felt like one lazy bug has got into me and has sucked most of my blood away... Leaving me drained. Hope I felt this way becos I was sick for some time.

What should a person with no directions in life do? Used to say a friend who is constantly changing job or without job that he has no goal in life, life will then meant nothing... Well.. Here I am.

What do I want?? Why do I feel this way?? I hope I know...

Every Little Tots

That feeling is here again

$10 Million Toto!

Simply Fascinated!

It's a Challenge!

Vomit Blood

Nobody can help u except yourself

Highlight of CNY!

~~Jan 2012~~

Welcome 2012!

Last and final post for 2011!

Last Day of Yr 2011!

Any takers?

Our Activities in Penang

Nic is going to K1!

Don't bother me!

Penang Trip - Food!

Day 4 Night - Last Night

Pics are coming.. later

Penang Trip

Ready to go!

My Fated X'Mas Gift!

Shoes gave way - Again!

Good morning!

Over time

December is my favourite month

Lunar eclipse

More photos to share

Seriously worn out

All about bags!

Chanel Bag!

11.11.11

Let's pose!

一波未平一波又起

2 weeks!

Isn't it gross?

Sentimental song works

Are u interested?

Pls back off!!

Ades mosquito caught me!

Bizarre things happening!

The Gondola man

Yeah Baby!

Milano here I come again!

Yet another retro night!

Who is your saviour?

Last day of the month

Adele - Set Fire to the Rain Lyrics

Updates from the boring blogger

Coffee works

Exercise routine

Bird Park during my Birthday!

My parents' 5 grandchildren

Old notebook

You know the answer

Me and my Nic only

Style is Important!

Good or Bad

Singplay at Terminal 3

The Istana

The Istana

In a circle

Determinination

Too fat to be true!

Something very wrong

Be amazed!

Nic knows how to Plank!

ClubMed Bintan!

More Photos

I just can't get enough

Crab time!

They are thirsty

Shallow me!

Money cannot buy happiness?

Public transport media

Taiwan Trip!!

Wan Bao is for aunties?!

Totally drained

Here I go again! Help!

Lost touch...

Jan 2012